Saturday, December 17, 2011

The elusive nerdy dick

There's a character I've been wanting to develop for quite some time but not sure exactly how to execute it. I found another element of him tonight at a stand up show.

(side note: the only reason I went to the show was to see a girl I have a bit of a crush on perform. She hosted, and I thought she was the funniest person, only further bolstering the reason for my crush. Also, she doesn't know who I am, so there we are on that note).

The comic was describing his experience going through airport security next to a pilot. They both took off their jackets-normal, both emptied their pockets in the trays-normal, then he took out his macbook while the pilot took out a Compaq Presario-panic time! According to the comic, he could not trust anyone who has such an out-dated piece of electronics. I read his reaction as: the pilot is not like me, which means he's an ignorant moron who will crash my plane out of stupidity. That's kind of the heart of this character I keep seeing and want to explore: the nerdy dick.

He's kind of a hypocritical elitist. He is the first to correct people when they make grammatical or factual errors, and the first to blog about how rude people are when they try to correct him. He's really the modern day version of the jock in the world of geek chic. He bullies other people who he deems inferior to him. Basically, he's a lot of what I hate about people all wrapped up in narcissistic intellectualism. In short, he's the parts of me I don't like.

For some reason, despite having strong notions of who this character is and where he comes from, I just cannot find the right frame to put him in, the sketch to write for him or the monologue manifesto for him to pronounce. Perhaps I'm still too close, or I have not yet learned to laugh at that part of myself. Either way, he's still there taunting me. One day, soon enough, I'll find out exactly where he lives and he'll talk. Until then...I'll just know he's always there-looking down on all my life choices.

I am not abandoning my blog

...I just seem to be taking some time away from it.

Over the last few weeks since my last post I've written at least one or two blogs a day, the problem is I wrote them in my mind and they never found their way out of there. I sent out a search party, but the outlook is not hopeful. I fear they might be lost forever.

What can we learn from this tragedy?

When you do something, make sure it exists in a way other people know it exists. Turns out those blogs were a lot more like high school crushes. They were just too shy and whatever the opposite of world-weary is for people to know they even existed. Se la vie.

My mind has turned more to tweeting, so now anything longer than a single run-on sentence seems like some epic feat.

That might explain the paragraph structure.

Or not.


Yep...totally worth the wait.

Person 1: Would you say it was worth its wait in gold?
Me: No. No I would not.

The end.

(by Leonard Nimoy)

Friday, December 2, 2011

My job is school, is life.

I know I am unemployed, but I feel very busy. It is similar to college when I had a lot of different things I studied and lived in a bit of a sheltered environment with a heavy focus on self-development. That's kind of where I am here in LA. Instead of a part time job working at a restaurant, my part time job is going to improv shows. I am putting in my hours every week going to class, extra rehearsal time and as many shows as I can manage (mostly free for students). That is my job and I am fortunate enough at this point in my life to have a support network that allows me to focus on what's in front of me and work at my full time job: acting. This is the part of my career where I do not do much of it for money, but I see a lot of it for experience.

I know I have deeper thoughts on the subject, but I spent a few hours improvising in the dark (a freak windstorm last night is still wreaking havoc on the power grid), and then I went to an 11pm improv show and just got back to my room in Pasadena, so my brain is a bit fried. The point is, my job is to research and study my craft and be the best me I can be. That is my quest and goal. That is my real full time job and I am treating it as such...just without the pay for the time being.

I guess I can say I had a long day at the office. Plus I got another credit on IMDB put up today, so that's not too bad.